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Do I feel lonely, or is it just solitude? Okay, so what is the difference between these two?

Loneliness is a feeling of when, even though you may be surronded by lots of people, you don't feel so much connected with them. You may have work colleagues, acquaintances, neighbors, but none of them are actually your friends.

Solitude is when you are physically lonely, and you quite enjoy it. Whether you're home alone, or going for a walk in the park, or going to have dinner all by yourself, that's solitude.

It's Carnival

You may have a hint of where I live by this post. Well, Carnival has begun and after years of it being cancelled due to the pandemic, it's finally back. And it's a mess. Some people love it, and I wish I could celebrate it without fear, but that's not the case. Basically, I get stuck at home because 1. my friends will celebrate Carnival, 2. I cannot physically move around because there will be too many people on the streets and in the trains.

My parents are travelling, some of my friends are going to celebrate Carnival, some others will stay at home as well, and my crush can't come to my place this week. So I'll just stay alone...

Do I feel loneliness or solitude right now? After spending these days at home without working due to my medical leave, doing things I enjoy and rarely going out, I believe I'm just enjoying my solitude. I still talk to a lot of people on Discord, and that's great.

In the beginning of this year, on my birthday, I felt lonely. Not only I was depressed, but I felt terribly lonely for some reason.

Anyways, I'll just try to enjoy my solitude while it's still solitude and not loneliness and depression. Please enjoy this musical selection about loneliness and solitude.